tomorrow is the inter-class debate comp!!

today, Kaijun, Alex and Huangteik came to my house for group discussion on 2moro's debate comp!!
spend most of the time playing!!
Haha~
OMG!! Alex very pro in Naruto Game!!
I lost till very cham cham!! T.T
met another pro person~
and I also get to know kaijun more..haha!!
still very gentle and well mannered..XD
we didn't discuss much and I have to prepare a longer speech...
Oh Man!! I hate writing essays~

last but not least~
Gambateh lar..4T1!!

人生果然是条曲线~

还记得今年老师有给我们做一篇理解关于曲线美。。。
述说曲线的美丽。。。
也用曲线来形容人生。。。
我在这十月份内经历了两段波折。。。
虽然只有两段，但是我过得很难堪。。。

首先就是我跟我阿嬷的事。。。
这事情真的好严重。。。
把整个家里气氛搞得很紧。。。
最后，我还是向我阿嬷道了歉。。。
毕竟她是我的家人，我们都住在同一个屋檐下。。。
现在关系恢复如以前一样。。。
没事了。。。雨过天晴！！

另一个就是朋友啦。。。
不能透露是谁。。。能猜得到的马上猜到。。。
我是个弱不禁风的人。。。非常的感性。。。
会因为一点言语。。。一些举动而落泪。。。
其实我的‘奇’字已在五年级就换成‘祈’了。。。
只是没跟着写而已。。。
我阿嬷说：“自从你换你的‘奇’字后，你好像变成一个爱哭鬼，不要换名啦。”
这也是因为我不换名的其中一个理由。。
因为受不了朋友所开的玩笑。。。
我再次的输给自己的自尊。。。眼泪顽皮地掉了下来。。。
哈！我哭了？！
明明知道这是一个玩笑。。。我还是挨不了吗？
因为眼泪。。。我在第二天的时候跟我的朋友之间再次存有块冰。。。
最后还是化解了。。。

在这漫长的十月份~
我学会了主动。。。主动化解一切。。。
因为只有化解才不会一直呆在一个充满误会的世界里。。

Iceberg Broke....spring is nearby..

I do discuss on how to handle my communication between me and my grandma...
today just discussed it with eevon...
discussing makes me wanna do it...
at last...I went back home at about 7.30pm...
when I'm gonna eat...I just say...
Me: 阿嬷, sorry...
阿嬷: 你现在才会讲sorry...
Me: OH MAN~[ this is monolog dalaman ]
after some nags from her...all I do is resist and listen...
I cried without my grandma noticing me...but my sis does...
I think is ok now...
I guess...
and I hope so....
有时候，一个非常爱脸的人也得放下自尊心来聆听他人的教诲..

went to the scrabble work shop to rock my day...

first of all, I thought scrabbles are dull and boring...
But I changed my mind about it after attending today's event...
today, me and ah leon hit the school together...
of course I'd found some friends attending it too..
met zhongyu and cheeyee too..they're helpers...wow!!

I don't really know how the game functions at all...
after a short guidance and instructions from the host...
we all started an one to one game...
I'm nervous because my language ain't wide enough...
1st round with a form 1 student...and i think he's my junior...
the main point is...I lost to him!!
you see...I sucks in this game...
but I'm still considered as a newbie...
I just got 74 marks....while most of the people have 100+...
OH MY~I really sucks..=3=

next round with a guy dunno is my form or form 3...
won this round with a slight difference of 2...
I'm improving..=D
I'd got beaten harsh in the 3rd round...
I knew that my opponent is a pro in English...
she's really good..and she talks like a English person too...
the difference between our marks is about 100+...very strong opponent..

the last round is with Nicole...
I know the game better in this round...thanks for Nicole's guidance!!
she's strong too!! so in the end...I won 1 round in 4 rounds...=v=
haha..XD
after helping tidy up the room...
went back home via ah leon's granny's car...
and thanks for the food though...paiseh~

I'd tried to break the ice...but it seems it's not working~

Had a confrontation with my grandma yesterday....
It's all about the 奖学金 thing....
She always says about it every time... which is considered as nagging!!
Oh My GOD!!
I'd have to admit that I have low EQ~
I over lost controlled of my feelings...
but she seems to get the whole thing wrong...
by that time....it was raining...
and the rain must be affecting my internet connection...
I was getting frustrated all over a sudden...
then, a phone call arrived...it was grandma's..
then I just lost controlled of my voice and called my grandma to answer the phone...
and i think that made the whole cold war happened..Z!!!

today..my sis just forgotten her promise to attend the activity..
my friend and also my sis's group leader ask me for a reason...
I don't know what to answer as I thought she will attend...
my heart felt heavy all of a sudden...
back home...I'd try to break the ice to end the cold war...
but it seems useless...
whatever...I'm not the only one who is to blame...
when my youngest sis says that she is not going to bother me anymore...
I just simply answered, fine...
then my tears starts to shed...

我的确是想太多了~

自从中二后。。。
我今年再次地想得太多了。。。
多添几样自找的烦恼。。。
我真的是要做一个能够放得下的人。。。

让噩梦快点过去吧~

希望噩梦快点过去。。。
今天。。。你又变到很冷淡了。。。
不知为什么。。。我有点害怕。。。
一只默不作声。。。有时会发脾气。。。
是我做错了什么吗？？我真的搞不懂。。。
有时候要妥协你。。。蛮辛苦的。。。
时好时坏的你。。。真的是让我摸不着头脑。。。
开始还好好的。。。突然变成这样子。。。
让我觉得我今天会越来越倒霉。。。

唉~今天开会。。。
竟然不成功通知每个人穿同一件衣。。。
有点愧疚。。。我朋友说不用紧啦~
那愧疚心还在。。。
我这个人真的是放不下所有事情。。。
我这个人。。。在重要场合时。。。都是静静地听人家的意见。。。
他们说我有点默默付出的款。。。
要我多发言。。。
我正尝试改变着。。。尽量给多一点意见。。。
我同时注意到三位主席有点难堪。。。不知是我多心还是什么。。。
他们都好像很压力。。。加油！！

不知明天遇到你又是怎样的呢？？
难道又要我充当第一个人来破冰？？

I hate my internet connection!!

So pekchek!!
always disturbing me online-ing!!
when surfing a page...suddenly it turns limited!!
aargh!! what the hell!!
sometimes it even cannot connect to the net!!
Gosh!!

今天的食物派对！！

老实说。。。今年是我第一年遇到这么high的班。。。
办了一次食物派对。。。今天是第二次了！！
上次因为爱心周壁画的关系而无法参与。。。
这次也不完全尝试到所有食物。。。因为要忙团体东西。。。
但是也很爽啦。。。
哈哈！！

钱包仔啊~你去了哪儿呢？？

唉。。。自从跟krs的一班朋友一起去jusco后。。。
就照成了我那蓝色得钱包离我一生一世~
TwT...我到底放到哪去了？？
不可能被人偷走。。。自己掉了也不可能啊。。。我的包包可是关得很牢固的。。
里面有二十多块。。。学生证和补习卡。。。
幸好没有装IC。。。要不然麻烦可大了~
真的找不回了吗？？
真希望我醒来后，钱包就在我旁边~

我与我那差劲的记忆力！！

唉~我的记忆力好差！！
怎么办？？
我已经忘了带回我那可怜的眼镜盒很多次了！！
今天也是这样！！
多谢xinhong帮我把眼镜盒救回来~多谢你！！
还有带choo sat nee的作文簿给toto。。。
这事情她已在几个月前交代我了。。。
我竟然记不着！！！
早知道听妈妈的话。。。每天饭后吃一粒鱼肝油。。。
我会努力地把东西记下来！！一定！！

我不要当一个不会煮菜的人！！

今天，班上正轰轰烈烈地讨论举办party的事情。。。。
每个人都得准备食物。。。
我有参与。。。
但是就是不知道要准备什么。。。=.=lll
后来最后我跟忠昱就负责买零食。。。很简单的工作。。哈哈！！
唉。。。
说实在的，我也得好好学习煮菜了。。。
被阿梁射了一句只会煎蛋和煮快熟面。。。
开始有点觉悟了。。。=.=
也同时让我察觉到，我身边的人也蛮多都会煮的嘛~
包括我的妹妹。。。顿时觉得有点丢脸~
我不要当煮菜白痴啦！！
要多多向我那妹妹请教一下了。。。
其实我想做的第一个菜是饭团~
似乎有点高难度。。。没有本事做得好。。。
好吧！！我下了决定！！
先煮意大利面吧！！而且是一个人煮哦！！
希望整间厨房不会被我搞砸了~呵呵

To a Friend I really cherished

I knew her when I was in form 1...
She sat in front of me...
In my memories...I cannot recall when does a conversation started between us..
later...we talked a lot...we share a lot of things together...
I still remembered that time I was pinched by her...
sometimes I'll be mad...then she'll turn back to her place and do her work quietly...
when I called her...she ignored me...I felt scared...because I don't want to lose this friendship..
then I will discuss with my partner who sat beside me on how to handle this problem...
then I will say: "Sorry lar..." [shaking her chair]
then she will turn back again and say:"I'm not mad at you..=)"
then we start a conversation all over again...
that's why I really liked my form 1 moments...

Form 2...we're in different classes...
somehow I felt lonely...there's no one playing around and pinching me...
I missed it...

Form 3...we're in the same class again!!
I'm happy~=D
she sat beside me...we talked..we fool around...
she likes to edit my pictures..
she will scold me for lending my books to others...
I remembered she beat me in Othello even she just learned how to play it...
and I won her in animal chess and she's the one who taught me..
Form 3 is also one of the best moments I had in there...
I really missed 3A1...

Form 4...we're in different class and we took different subjects...
form 4 is nice...but I do miss her though...
we're in different blocks...so we don't meet each other often...
when I saw her..I will be extremely in power...and gave her the best greeting...
the one thing I've never seen before is when she's crying...
maybe I don't know her much...but at least I've try to do that...

will this be to obvious..??
never mind...I wanna share my feelings anyway..=)

我要培养阅读风气！！>,<"

没错！！虽然考试已过了。。。
但是我还是要培养一个好习惯嘛~
就打算阅读咯。。。
在学校可打发时间。。。
今天是第一天正式阅读！！带了九把刀的《那些年我们一起追的女孩》
超赞的！！like!!X3
是我看的第二本言情小说。。。。

故事大纲不错！！
看完了后就要到已久违的图书馆去借书咯！！
是时候进行些修养了~

SHHhhhh~secret

I'm on a secret mission today!!
what am I doing today...
It's a secret...
so keep it down~>v<"

I'm stronger now~=)

Exam's over....
now is the time you know your results...
this is indeed a nightmare...!!
GOSH~
but it must happen anyway...

OK...1st..
Moral...kinda depressed though cause I thought I could score a higher mark...
haha~well...at least I improved...congrats to those who score high marks too...=D
next is add maths...
most people fail this subject...
I felt lucky that I passed...
gambateh!! we're improving ourselves!! let's Fight For The BETTER~!!
sivik...
satisfied with my results...=D
physics...
fail 1st but now I passed it!!=D
I've noticed...
most of my friends failed add maths...
but they're still smiling....
a flashback about me crying over my bad add maths result an the second class test suddenly popped out of my mind...
all I remembered is I'm crying...crying badly...full of sorrow...
then my friend ask me what am I crying for...
I said...I lost to a person I'd shouldn't lose....
my friend said...don't compare your results with others..just compare with yourself...
she consulted me till she cried...I felt bad about it...

after knowing my results is kinda poor this time...
I'm just setting me in comparing with me...this really works...~
still there's someone who surpasses me...
because of his hard work i think...
A stubborn person like me really don't like to follow others...
still trying to change my thoughts..
seeing him smiling like that really gets into my nerves...I felt that I wanna hit him~
but I can't do that...It's my fault anyway..for being stubborn...
I still hated add maths, I'm too trying to overcome my own weaknesses...

we're changing...
next time...I'll win you!!
That's a promise!!

My Twitter Account~=D

well...after friendster had been known as outdated in my life...
I've been sticking with facebook for my high school life...
now...I'd have a twitter account...
the name is kurosawahitomi....
I noe I'm way too japanese...but...I still like it!! XD

getting to know the twitter system is kinda hard you know...
replying tweets....blurring...@.@
now I'm getting hung to this...
it's pretty nice...
the problem is...I dunno who am I gonna follow...
well...I'd followed kakifly!!
kakifly is K-ON's manga artist!!
very happy to follow his tweets...
but apparently...all of his tweets are in japanese...=.=lll
using google translate still kinda weird though...

till then...I'm back to tweeting!! XD

music+drawing+photography=arts

it's almost the end of the exam..
just waiting for friday to end!!
To Tech classes' students:
Gambateh Kudasai!!

yesterday, I speak to mummy.
Me: mom, can....I...learn...guitar??
at that moment, I'm really scared, scared that mom will say NO~
because I'm the one who gave up on it first...
but the thing that made me happy is..
Mom: sure! why not?! but I think piano is better lar...
I'm really happy!! because I finally can do something I like...
no matter piano or guitar..I lurve BOTH!! XD
Finally found that I really lurve music~
I'll do my best to achieve the better!! shinjiteru!!

Drawing...never left me before...
I'll always hold my ren pencil...scribbling on papers!!
no matter in class..the teachers are teaching...
sometimes...I would just draw on my textbook...
juniors who take my textbook maybe will get a headache..XD
wanna download drawing software after all...
post lots and lots of them on facebook!!

Photography...
I once wanna be a photographer...
because taking pictures rock!!
but this feeling is fading away after all...
but now..it's coming back...
papa had a DSLR!! god...!!
it's complicated..but i'll figure it out!!
the main thing of photography is editing the pictures...
because of some friends posted well edited photos on facebook..
just makes me wanna follow!!

music...I wanna feel the rhythm..
drawing..I wanna feel my soul
photography...I wanna see the world more~
simple & fun!!

normal is special..=)

one day, my friend said something to me.
Friend: You're special...
than I say: eh?? why??
Friend: I dunno how to describe it...you're just special...
Me: In what way??
Friend: You're special that you're too normal..i guess..
Me: normal??
Friend: Ya..you never have a desire on gaining something..
Me: Eh...I think you're wrong, I do have something that I want...I wanna go to Japan!! XD
Friend: that's different....
Me: eh...I'm not that normal lar...maybe you'd never saw the special me before...

well, this dialogue keep stucking on my head...
am I that normal...
maybe he's right...
maybe I agree...
that the normal I have makes me special..=)

wanna do many things after exam!!

The 1st thing after exam must be KRS activities...
well...fed up with paper work....
there's so many things to prepare..GOD!!
what a rush~

the main thing I wanna do is playing music!!
really wanna continue piano...
and learn guitar!!
but, I scare that I will have any time to spend on them...
due to activities...
sometimes...
I do admire those who are ahli mati in co-curricular acts..
they seem so stress free...
they can do whatever they liked...really admire them...

kinda looking forward to the gurney trip they planned after exam...
but, I scared that my time forbids me to go...
sometimes, i really wished that I'm not a committee...
maybe I'll be free from projects and other burdens...
but I may lose that friendship...
so I'm trying to figure it out...
trying to neglect all the things that I so called "burden"~
maybe it's not a burden at all...and I'm the one who's thinking it that way..

I'm just trying to have fun and gain an exciting life...